Wednesday, 23 March 2011

Another Update

I haven`t posted for a few days... why... I don`t really know. I`ve been feeling a little down and have no idea why. Mom went home a couple days ago, so I`ve been on my own. I`m finding it very hard getting enough protein, and sick of adding protein powder to everything. I`m finally allowed to have pureed food, so today I have to go shopping for some stuff. I can have poached eggs, and I`m going to make a lentil soup later today. It`s now become a chore to eat. I actually don`t feel like eating! I never thought I would ever say something like that.

I weighed myself this morning... I`m at 247lbs. It isn`t coming off as fast as I was expecting, but I guess every little bit I will take and enjoy. My problem now is trying to get out and start moving. My anxiety seems to be getting the better of me, and I have to seriously give it a kick in the ass. It will be a struggle to get ready today, but I`m determined to shower, straighten my hair and put make-up on. I`m losing weight and I should start feeling better about myself... so how come I don`t? When I get down to a normal weight... will I still feel fat and depressed? What`s wrong with my mind? When I have an UP day I`ll take it.



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8 comments:

  1. Hi Kimberly! Just stopped by to say "Hi" and to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers for a speedy recovery.

    I've known a couple people who have had bypass surgery. It's pretty common to feel a little blue. One friend explained it to me that she felt as though she was in mourning for her old way of eating & living.

    Remember it gets different before it gets better. Hang in there!

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  2. Aw it can take some time to lose weight, but you will be happier once you start to see the results.

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  3. Hang in there girl...things will look better soon! Weightloss is tough on all of us whether we have had gbp or not. I am sure once you see the pounds start to drop you will get the umph you need! I tend to get really anxious myself and it's tough. I always tell myself deep breaths but so much easier said than done at times.

    Keep smiling and thanks for linking up with us today. :)

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  5. Hey there. I hope you're having a better day today and know that it takes time but is worth it. At least I keep telling myself that - I'm workin' on losin' it too. :)

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    thanks!

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  6. You're in my thoughts -- hang in there, girl!

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  7. keep thinking positive thoughts....You can do it :)

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  8. Your body and brain are going through withdrawal -- withdrawal from food, and especially from sugar and carbohydrates. Combine that with the physical shock and trauma of surgery, and you're really thrown for a loop.

    It took me a good three months to really feel like myself again, but I bounced back from feeling down and drippy about four weeks after surgery. I hope the same happens for you!

    P.S. I'm a year and a half out now, and I still rarely have the urge to eat. I don't get hunger pains, and coming up with high protein stuff can definitely be a hassle. My suggestion: stock up on eggs, cheese, and yogurt. :)

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