Sunday, 6 January 2013
Where have I been hiding? Anxiety & Depression Takes Over.
I was in a partial hospitalization for three weeks, and that was right around the holiday season. I have to admit, that the last couple months have been the darkest days of my life. I thought I had been depressed in the past... well that was nothing compared to how I felt this last time. Anyway, I knew I was in dangerous waters, so I went to the ER and was admitted into a partial hospitalization program.
Being at the hospital all day for therapy, has helped me incredibly. Am I better? No where near... but I feel like there could be hope. That three week program has ended, and I'm currently doing a cognitive therapy group that takes place every Friday, and runs for 12 weeks. I've completed three weeks of that so far, and I must say that I'm enjoying it. I find it quite helpful to chart my goals, progress, and working on a plan for the next little while. I will be adding some information for those of you who are curious and interested in cognitive therapy, that way you can chart your goals, etc.
In a couple weeks I will be starting a new partial therapy hospitalization program. This time it is just twice a week, and that will be on top of the cognitive therapy program. I'm trying to keep myself somewhat busy, to help prevent myself to go back into my agoraphobic tendencies. Yes, this illness has taken over my life, and has crippled me from working, socializing, and even completing normal everyday tasks.
I will try and update everyone on a regular basis, and make it a priority of keeping a diary of my thoughts, moods, etc., as my therapist will be following my progress on here as well. I created this blog in the beginning many years ago, just for that purpose... of keeping an online diary for health reasons.