Sunday, 23 March 2014
How Have I Been?
The last little while I've been noticing a huge improvement when it comes to my life. I've been working now for about six weeks, have managed to get myself out of debt, and I'm officially divorced. Regarding my new job... I love it! It's nice being part of a work family... I actually feel normal once again. What I mean by that? Well, when I was off work I felt like I was missing out on everything. I wasn't interacting with people on a daily basis, which was affecting my anxiety and depression.
It's official... I'm divorced. I didn't say much regarding it before, as I was waiting on a court date. I had to go to court regarding a restraining order/peace bond. The first time I went, I wasn't able to provide the needed evidence at that time... I had text messages from my cellphone that were saved on my old computer, but my computer crapped out. By the second court date I managed to get the file and print it out, and the judge granted the peace bond in my favor. There were many sleepless nights that I stayed up stressing over the whole situation, and I'm still sad that it didn't work out. We were just too different in many ways, and it ended in a bad way... no possibility of even friendship. It's heartbreaking at times, because we did have good times.
For the first time in a long time, I've actually put myself before a man. I didn't really know who I was, without having someone attached to me at the hip. I felt like I was always trying to take care of my spouse and his family, and forgot about my needs.
What else is new in my life? I ran into my first love! Yes, my very first boyfriend I ever had. Small world... haven't seen him since I was about 18. We picked up like not a day had passed, just like when I got reunited with my BFF.
Life is good at the moment, and I'm trying to stay positive. I'm taking it day by day, and it seems to get easier as time passes.