Monday, 12 May 2014
I've been happy but slightly down at the same time. I can't deny that on occasions I notice my ex husband tweets stuff for me, and it's distracting, heart breaking, frustrating... so many emotions going through my mind. I thought that I'd be happy once the divorce was finalized, and once I had the restraining order in place. Honestly... I'm just as gloomy about the whole situation. Divorce isn't fun... I'm sad/sorry that it didn't work out in the end. I guess no matter how hard you try and work some stuff out, there's no hope in fixing it.
If it wasn't for a good friend I wouldn't have had the balls to leave my ex. Even with the abuse... it wasn't until I met that special someone who taught me I'm worth more. It's all about me now... I'm stronger because of it. The only problem with that now... I have feelings for my friend. Yes, we have been dating, and I feel beautiful once again... for the first time in a long time. Where will it go? No where... it can't. We live two very different lives, and it would never work other then good friends... best friends actually. God brought him to me at a time where I was in darkness, and I finally see the light. Now it's ME time... time to be the best ME that I can be.